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Check out my latest vlog on YouTube! The “Do” and...

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 18:35:26 -0400

Check out my latest vlog on YouTube! The “Do” and The V-Card

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Mon, 17 Jun 2013 09:58:45 -0400

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAno.

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 01:24:00 -0400

Oh how I would love to fucking snap you in half still. There are literally no words to describe the sleazy bitch that you really are.

See, I’m a pretty forgiving person, not the kind to hold grudges even if you don’t apologize. But it’s been a little bit over a year and for some reason, I still have the same (if not more) resentment and anger towards you. I can’t say I hate you YET, but I feel like it’s getting there. You should feel honoured. You’re one of the very few whom I can openly without-a-doubt say that I hope to see you in hell soon.

drewtrinnh: I think one of the worst pains when you’re single...

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 01:18:25 -0400

drewtrinnh:

I think one of the worst pains when you’re single and trying to win someone over comes at the moment when you realize they’re not interested in you.

At that point it becomes a myriad of thoughts ranging from why aren’t I good enough to love is a bitch. Your self-esteem falls off the edge and you’re caught swimming in a pool of depression. All you can think about is love and every time you hear the word it reaches at your heart and wrenches every warm emotion out of it.

But that’s stupid. I mean, how can you relate your self-worth on someone else’s subjective opinion of you? If that’s what your self-esteem is made of, then I suggest you rethink yourself.

But there’s still that pain over losing someone you wanted. Where does it come from? It’s got to be love right? It’s got to be, especially if you feel that physical pain in your chest. Your heart’s about to cave in, your eyes well up and you’re you caught in a lonely sad place.

But it’s not love. I’m sorry, but it can’t be. Love is something built between two people over a period of time. You saw her, but you didn’t fall in love with her. That pain comes from you overvaluing something that you imagined to be possible. The pain I’m talking about makes you numb. It doesn’t allow you to eat or sleep or be happy.

I don’t mean to burst your bubble but I just wanted to share with y’all something I learned during my last relationship. Love is a beautiful thing but so many people don’t see it when they’ve got it. Love is fighting for someone else’s happiness even if that happiness doesn’t include you. It’s not about going on cute ass dates at Signal Hill or buying hella gifts. It the struggle that you endure when situations get rough. It’s letting go when it’s time. It’s knowing that in the end, you cry not because you’re sad, but because you’re glad it happened in the first place.

I was in love. I see it now.

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Mon, 17 Jun 2013 01:18:05 -0400

Finally got onto kik! Add me up: loulagman

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 01:06:39 -0400

Finally got onto kik! Add me up: loulagman:

If you add me, kindly put your name and username that way I know who I’ll be responding to. Thanks! :)

langleav: Check out my poetry reading from my new book Love...

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 20:08:54 -0400

langleav:

Check out my poetry reading from my new book Love & Misadventure and order a copy here.

Sundays with Michael
I hold my breath and count to ten, I stand and sit, then stand again. I cross and then uncross my legs, the planes are flying overhead. The dial turns with every twist, around the watch, around his wrist. Resting there with pen in hand, who could ever understand? The way he writes of all I dream, things kind yet cruel and in-between, where underneath those twisted trees, a pretty girl fallen to her knees. Who could know the world we’ve spun? I shrug my shoulders and hold my tongue. I hold my breath and count to ten, I stand and sit, then stand again.

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Sat, 15 Jun 2013 22:23:25 -0400

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Sat, 15 Jun 2013 22:04:34 -0400

langleav: Love & Misadventure by Lang Leav

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 21:23:40 -0400

langleav:

Love & Misadventure by Lang Leav

what do you mean you can’t hang out i showered for this i shaved for this i put a bra on for...

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 21:23:26 -0400

what do you mean you can’t hang out i showered for this

i shaved for this

i put a bra on for you.

i got off tumblr for you

i am wearing real pants

I went outside

i got out of bed

i woke up

ohmyandy: _

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 21:23:16 -0400

ohmyandy:

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wild-nirvana: •my spiritual world•

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 20:55:38 -0400

wild-nirvana:

•my spiritual world•

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Sat, 15 Jun 2013 20:55:23 -0400

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Sat, 15 Jun 2013 20:55:19 -0400

Fish

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 20:54:57 -0400

Okay, so this is the second time I’ve ever talked about you but this time I’m stronger than last time.

I courteously invite you to go and fuck yourself. I’ve drawn to the conclusion that you disconnected me in your life due to a relapse of what happened in our grade 11 year. You couldn’t handle that I was so “self-absorbed” about my problems, especially how superficial they seemed. But believe me, being friends with you at first, was the most difficult thing ever. I’ve become the one nightmare I sought to become. But at the same time, I got so comfortable being friends with you that I thought it was okay to start consistently opening up to you.

But I guess I was wrong. Maybe you were a superficial friend. Someone I can’t fully be open up to and trust pain with. Being in our senior year, I’d understand distance. But age does not define maturity. The least I thought was you’d give the decency and respect to at least tell me what I was doing wrong because you of all people knew what happened to me in my grade 11 year. You knew what happened to me, and you just happened to be a relapse of it. I guess it was a relapse for both of us.

Anyway, best wishes to you, Abby. Good riddance, I guess, and I hope you have a good life.

michaelfaudet: New Book ‘Love & Misadventure’ by Lang Leav...

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 17:33:50 -0400

michaelfaudet:

New Book ‘Love & Misadventure’ by Lang Leav available here

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